Show them how funky and strong is your fight.

I feel very weird today. I have been feeling very homely and wanting to make our home into a nice place to live for my fiancĂ© and I, and I feel really really broody. I just want kids. Saw some friends earlier for something that should have been fun and exciting and ended up leaving…

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I cannot picture my life right now, and it scares me. I keep thinking that if i wasnt here people would be sad for a bit and then carry on as though i wasn't ever there. My body is in physical pain right now with how bad i feel, and i cannot get off the…

I don’t even know.

As I write this I have a weird feeling of not belonging, like I am some weird kind of alien and I have no place in this life, no purpose and no sense of myself. I have no idea who I am or what my point is. I have been dissociating a lot this week…

What I’ve done

Tonight I relapsed in self harm. I am so ashamed, but I felt like I had no other option. I have been so lonely today, and have had a whole whirlwind of emotions going on in my head. I got offered a new job today, working every saturday and one in four sundays. Not great…

Living with bpd.

I have to say, living with BPD has really been kicking my ass lately. It is just so hard. I thought that by starting my medication things would pick up - and I think they did for a while - but now it feels like things are slipping again and it's beyond my control. I'm…

Nothing

I feel so off recently. My thoughts are so anxiety ridden and wild, nothing is making sense, everything is conflicted and I don't understand. I feel one way and my brain is changing it into something bad and something I struggle to let go of. My eating is out of control right now, my weight…

World, hold on…

...instead of messing with our futures, open up it's eyes. World, hold on. One day you will have to answer to the children of the skies. Been struggling with my faith a lot recently. I hate the planet that we live in, and all the terrible things that people say and do. I know it's…